to be someone’s lowest priority, to have your needs neglected, to go unheard, to letting someone care for you only when it is convenient for them, to love and upheld someone, only to be lied to and heart broken, to make them unhappy because they don’t try to make you happy, to love them more to make them love you more, to not ask for anything with the fear of losing what you have, to beg for attention when they have all of yours, to not know how to make the other person happy because everything feels like an act of insecurity to them, to trying everything to only able to make them happy momentarily, only for them to hate you soon, to be seen as a drag for sticking by, to always feel intermediary, to lose self-worth just to keep things intact, to lose a lot in life only with the false hopes of winning with them.
to fuck your self and them only to be their lowest priority.
to fall so low, to feel ashamed of self and for them to feel ashamed of you.
